stand?

So this weekend was really interesting, and the sad part is it is only saturday, but I guess I let my pride and anger take over my common mind, then comes the alcohol. which is never a good choice. Don't get me wrong I felt like getting my Social network on (blogging while angry and drinking) but i decided to just chill with some friends and take my frustration to the face. But thats the sad part of my weekend. Funny enough if you take about a good 5 shots to the face while chasing it with liquor you'll find a reason to smile even through your sorrow. Thats the funny part. But does that make me pathetic, a drunker, or weak. I couldn't tell you. But now that it think about it i would say all three. Pathetic to not just man up and brush it off like i usually do everything else, pathetic to go stra8 to a poison that gives a illusion of a better feeling, but its actually worse, and hurting my body slowly at the same time... Damn!... and in that same gives me the title of a drunker. Now this is weakness in my eyes. to admit im weak is the first step i guess right? But its not that im emotionally weak its that I guess im mentally weak.. Wow bold statement... But i guess its true. If i wasnt i wouldnt do the things i do. which can easily be disputed whether it can be labeled strength but i digress... Life has its highs and lows and with every storm theres a sunshine around the corner ... All words of encouragement through hard times non give comfort if your not technically sad ... i guess the best term to describe my feelings toward this whole situation is im still standing... so can i call that strength???